I'm not absolutely convinced about a lot of things. I have no clue what I want to do when I grow up. I may want to go into the radio business, the writing business, ministry, or anything else. I just have so many talents, I don't know what to choose! Ha ha! My perfect, fantasy dream is to own a Christian radio company so I can play the music that I want to hear. Unfortunately, that probably will not happen until I'm old, like in my 50s.
Now, I could go into the things that I am convinced about. I could say that I will certainly sin today, certainly go to church tonight, certainly listen to music right now and for as long as I can, and certainly play basketball this afternoon and Friday. However, I am not a guy to go for the obvious.
There are some things I am convinced of. I know that I will eventually marry. I've convinced myself that marriage will eventually be a reality for me. Those who know me well know that I am a true lover, and that there is no way I'll spend the last 60-70 years of my life as a bachelor. That just isn't even considerable. I will marry someday, unless I die beforehand or something.
I'm also convinced that I love to read. I read books by the shelf load and I love them. It's a way for me to forget about a bad day or to reminisce with my favorite characters from an old favorite. One author particularly is my personal favorite. His name is Ted Dekker. His books are like parables. They say things like "The kingdom of God is like this" or "the love of God is like this" and they really make me think. Two of his books have convinced me that each person has different sides. Everyone has the good portion, the evil portion, and the portion in between. I've learned that there are two chambers in every heart, one for Satan and one for Jesus. One must be pumped out, or the heart will die. I, personally, do have a bad streak. It flows easily with my good streak, so it isn't always as clear as to when it flows and when it doesn't. Sometimes I can somehow manage to do things for Jesus, sometimes I do things only for me, and sometimes I pull off doing something that will benefit Jesus and me.
I can also list other things I'm convinced of. I'm certain I won't live the rest of my life in Tennessee. Texas and Indiana are states of the past, and hopefully states of the future. My church in Indiana still feels like home when I reminisce about my friends there. I'd love to eventually go back to Fall Creek Baptist. I'm also certain I'll go to college. I have good grades, and essentially, I have to go to college in order to have a successful career in this country. I'm certain that I will try to be the best husband and father I can be. In the past nine months, I've slowly built myself into a mature young man. I've watched the way my extended family, my parents, and my friends act enough to decide what qualities I admire in them and what qualities to avoid in myself. I'm certain that I have chosen to be the best that I can be. I'm morphing into who I want to be now, but it's a lifelong process.
And for whom it may concern, yes I have edited this post. David pointed out I didn't say "convinced" once, so I threw a few "convinced" things in and now I'm good.