It seems that every spring, love abounds. And this spring isn't a disappointment. Why? Valentine's Day didn't fail to remind me of romance. Because of writing class (long story), Bambi, Thumper, and twitterpation have been on my mind a lot. My youth pastor's wife and another young wife at church are both pregant. Love is in the air.
It's times like these where it's hard to be single. I am more resolute now than ever to stay away from romantic relationships, but the longing is still there. I want so badly to be pure for my wife, but the lustful desires are ever-present. I love seeing movies and concerts with friends, but the wish for special dates with a special girl bombards me. I have more respect for my friends who don't date, but I can't keep me from wanting a girlfriend. Most of my friends' relationships are petty and never last, so why do I want to be like them?
My flesh wants earthly love but my spirit wants God. That's as simple as I can put it. I, the real Logan, wants nothing more than a thriving, growing, passionate relationship with God. But the old me still bugs me with a desire for a dating relationship. I'm also faced with the greatest Catch 22 of all time: I will only date a smart, wise, lovely, mature Christian girl, but all smart, wise, lovely, mature Christian girls don't date! It's such an irony. But what a lovely irony it is!
My closer friends-that-are-girls are all strong Christians who do not date. It's really cool how God has surrounded me with girl friends like these. I've got no romantic draw to these girls, yet it's so much fun to be around them! I'm sure one day, way down the road, I'll begin a relationship with a wonderful young woman. But I don't want to associate myself with the drama, disorientation, distractions, and distress of dating until I know myself to be a strong, wise, and prepared enough young man to handle it (and her).